Constant Hellish Feelings

I feel like we're in this constant whirl of nothing working, nothing happening. Everything is just complete crap today. Her dribble rash is so excessive despite creams and changes it can't just be dribble rash. Plus so much gas the last few days. She might be teething, but on top. I'm completely worn out. I actually saw 156 on the 15th I think? And now I've been eating nonstop and I feel disgusting. I feel like crap. We're both just seemingly in this rotton spiral.

I'm cutting the soda. I got coffee today. Last time I consumed coffee I got sick, but I'm hoping it was just contaminated with gluten. Coffee and rice tomorrow? Yay?

I feel a little silly

That rash I was freaking out about? Really it was just a dribble rash. I wasn't keeping her dry enough under her chin. Sigh. BUT more importantly her poops look really stellar now. Like close to week 2 poop. Which is what I wanted, nice healthy poops. Which means things are great right now. I'm going to rapidly bring food back in, I think things were fine, just now her gut has really really healed up.

I also legit exercised today. Did a core circuit workout. Not that I did great, but I did it. (Pssst, apparently I can't do a sit-up anymore)

Following this plan for now http://www.bodybuilding.com/fun/jamie-easons-post-pregnancy-trainer-months-1-3.html

Though I can't really go out for walks, but I can do Zumba. And I want to work yoga back into my daily routine. So that's my plan. Do the circuit workout on days I don't do Zumba and try to do yoga when I can. I could even try to fit in My!Fitness Trainer, if Peanut wants to join me.

I'm feeling really good today! Plus yesterday I clocked in at 157.2 - 10 year low weight for me!

Restarting Day one!

Ok, well, breakfast was a bit of a... thing. But lunch I restarted. Plain rice, pork chop, salt and pepper. Fennel/Cumin/Coriander tea. Snack of pears. Last night she was sooooo super gassy. But she only woke up once after wakeup and once overnight (though up early for the day) but then took a short first nap....

I'm so nervous about the 4 month sleep regression. Everything just screams at me, shit it's here! I'm skuuuuured!

Weight dropped down this morning, I assume the bloat has been lost, 159. But my nerves feel frayed. I even got sleep last night, DH let me sleep in and everything, nerves still frayed.

Went to Aldi last night, picked up a bunch of rice and pork chops. My other goal is to live on less. So that'll be our big shopping trip of the month. DH can bring home milk for Peanut and himself. This should be fuuuuun!

Chocolate, Coconut and cauliflower, oh my!

We've been having rash issues that just aren't clearing up on little Almond. So tomorrow I'm scrapping everything and going back to square one. Part of me is wondering about corn. I feel like I jumped the gun on processed food, and corn is in everything processed. So I bought some bulk rice (forgot carrots, d'oh!) I've got pears raisins and pork. Plus I experimented with a tea made from fennel, cumin and coriander that I liked. All are good for the digestive track, and fennel especially has been mentioned to help babies.

The rest of me... I've been dealing with the stress ok. My weight has been stable, which is great in the holidays. The girl turns 4 months tomorrow, this is a crazy time for babies. I've been looking forward to it forever.... just so we can get past it! It's been great having DH home too. When Peanut was this age... well it was the absolute worst, worst worst days of my life. And besides being more stable now, having him here is just incredible. He puts her to bed everything night! She doesn't stay asleep, but that doesn't matter. He does it and I love him so much for it. And she's adjusting. Today she's barely cried. So I'm greatful. And that's the end for now.

Onions Green Beans and Coconut

It looks like onions and green beans have been added to the safe list! I still really want to do coconut, but I feel like I should do mushrooms, as we have a bunch and I have a recipe for mushroom risotto we could have.

Zumba was successfully achieved Tuesday night and we'll go for it again tonight. I did however eat half a bag of potato chips yesterday. Not my best move ever, but Wednesdays are usually my most stressful day.

I went ahead and bit the bullet on the coconut, so no risotto tonight. I don't have the right rice anyways, so I can't easily make it. Plus..... Our Elf Patrick is in the risotto pan. So I made a minute biscuit with coconut flour and I might do something with coconut milk later.






-Friday-

Well Zumba didn't happen. The husband got home late and there just wasn't time. So tonight. Almond slept very well, though she was quite gassy. Didn't seem painful though. I should go ahead and try to do something right now... just can't summon the energy. Both kids wore me out at lunchtime.

Mushrooms tonight?

A new baby

It's been a long long time. But 2015 brought me baby number 2. She's 3 months now, her big brother is 4. I'm really at the same point as I was in many regards when I abandoned this blog originally. Except for a few points. Really one big one. I now know that I likely have Celiac Disease. If nothing else I'm highly sensitive to it. Peanut is too. Removing it has eliminated my depression, most of my anxiety, my skin conditions, my IBS, my joint problems, my headaches and so so so much more.

I'm at 160, I'm bouncing between 159-161 lately. Almond, my nickname for dear daughter, has a sensitive system just like her brother. I eat very little and she gets probiotics or she is a fussy gassy in pain baby morning and night. I backed off of almost all food for a week, eating just cheap cuts of pork, rice, carrots, pears, raisins and zucchini. I add in something new every few days now, and if she has a bad reaction, it goes on the hold off list.

Right now I eat:
Pork, Chicken, Beef, Eggs
Rice, Potatoes
Carrots, Peas, Zucchini
Pears, Grapes/Raisins
Canola Oil/Olive Oil
Herbs/Salt/Pepper
Diet Mountain Dew

Yeah, it's a little bland. I'm making my own mayo. The other day though I made chicken salad and tried adding pecans to it, and she has had an awful few nights. I don't know if the pecans are related, so they're on the no-no list. Though I will try them again (or another tree nut) sooner than other things on the list. Right now it includes...

Wheat/Gluten
Dairy
Soy
Tomatoes and any acidic foods
Oats
Pecans

Tonight I'm going to introduce onions. They're one of my favorite vegetables, a little on the iffy side on the spectrum of food, but I love them so we're trying them. I'm going to make chicken soup with rice noodles.

I'm thinking we're going to start up an exercise routine here too. At almost 15 weeks out exercise is beyond fine. So Tuesday and Thursday are going to be Zumba nights with my buddy Peanut. I'll figure out the rest as we go.

Wheat and sugars

These things I am trying to avoid. Wheat because it seems to make me have bad mood swings or even trigger a depressive episode. Sugar because it makes me feel sick. Fake sugar too I want to avoid... Really any gmo food :/

Yesterday I had coffee cake made with GF flour and two Mountain Dews. Around 630-700 I was pretty grumpy, I forced myself out and made potato pancakes (which I make with a little flour) and I was grumpy that night. Alas I have leftovers to eat today :/ and Peanut slept poorly so I want soda. But I'll keep working towards my goal of eliminating it.